It's been too long.

What have i been up to? Holidays are herreee and i'm looking forward to it :)
It's Sunday now and i've been spending the day thinking of my cravings which due to my hunger has become worse than usual. I'm just imagining my cravings when i get pregnant and imagine if i was fasting too! for those of you who don't know, i crave food violently on a daily basis (:
So noww i'm craving forrr:
1. Beef Steak Ciabatta from Ole Ole Bali
2. My banana royale with gummy bears and chewy chocolate ice cream
3. Durian
4. A KFC snack plate :D
5. Wendy's Quarter Pounder with cheese
6. Lasagne with cheewy cheese and chunks of meat
7. Garlic Bread
8. Waffles
9. Ikea Meatballs :)
10. Ayam Goreng Mcdeesss
11. BEEF STEAK CIABATTA (yes i'm really feeling some beef steak) hahaha.
Yes, I am currently drooling in my mouth.
These holidays will be used to read my happy books, catch up with some studying due to very unsatisfactory results from Trial 1 but you know, i will be wiser for my second trials. (i hope)
Some advice. (which is the most obvious thing i took for granted) Prepare WAAY ahead, pay more attention to details AND GET ENOUGH SLEEP THE NIGHT BEFORE. (seriously)
On a lighter note. Things I'm looking forward to for the week :
1. Eryse coming over :) (to do hw together, yes we are geeks)
2. Buka puasa with Iman and Salad at Ole Ole Bali (Whenever it'll happen)
3. Heading to Ikea to buy stuff for my room and decoratinog it! :):):)
4. Many many yummy buka puasa's
5. A new start as i finish reading my happy books :)
6. Just hanging out with the girls at the Prom Band Auditions (should be fun being a judge!)
7. MY JASON MRAZ SLEEPOVER WITH CARMEN BEFORE SHE LEAVES :(
8. Spending Merdeka eve with the girlsssss at my new place (fingers crossed for fireworks)
9. And just living in the moment everyday :)

Should be an awesome week ahead of me :) Those of you having your PMR trial 2 coming up, Study hard yes yes :)

when you're missing me (:

Let me sum up a proper goodbye and something to help you a little every day.
I've been going through alot but i'm mostly wondering how you're doing and i'm praying for your every happiness. I'm hoping you're okay, and putting your studies first knowing it'll make me happy. I'm hoping that if anything's ever too much and you need me, i'll be here and it's okay.
If you don't want my help then just remember my comforting smile telling you "It's gonna be okay. I BELIEVE IN YOU. And you've made me so proud already. :)"
I would like you to know that i'm only happy when you are. When all the small things remind you of me, don't let them sadden you, don't think of all the could have's but instead focus on the bigger accomplishment you're doing, what you're trying to learn so we can be friends again (:
I will always be watching over you in spirit and my prayers are with you.
I hope you never sink low, and always remember who you've become and how far you've come.
I hope you'll never do anything i wouldn't want you to. I hope you'll know that i'm caring about you so you'll do the same. Whenever you think of me or are reminded of me, PLEASE DON'T BE SAD. cause i will know! i want you to love yourself and don't be a cry baby like me :( hahah.
i know you don't cry. I also want you to know, i'll always be here for YOU whenevr you neeed me, don't hesitate :)
Lastly, I KNOW you'll be alright but i want you to know it too. you're not dying, this isn't the end of anything. just a new beginning. Everything happens for a reason and i know this is all for you.
Lots and lots of love and thank youu for EVRYTHING,
Nabihah :)

live high, live mighty, live righteously (:

I'm currently listening to my jason mraz cd and just tuning out the outside world and completely living high in this world i live in in my little head. going through all the thoughts in my head and reprogramming them in ways they would make sense for me to function as a human being. To make this sunday night even better i'm accompanying my little journey with reading Jason Mraz's blog. it feels like he's here with me and that feels good. My thoughts tell me i know him and he's here, ahhh. I sound crazy don't i? couldn't care less :) This is the perfect way to end my Sunday night and idly prepare for the Monday morning waiting for me and the sounds of the school bells ringing waiting for the last one to end. But right now, i'm changing that thought. This is the perfect way to end my Sunday night so i can wake up on my Monday morning, to start a new and just find ways to project kindness and smile at every chance i get. And thank god for the Monday morning he gave me, there must be a purpose i'm still alive and i won't waste it anymore. I'm living my purpose. So live yours too :)

hello hello :)

it's been forever and i'm losing my touch but yet i couldn't care less. my days have been filled with lots of fun, hello cheer :) but pain comes with it too. oh helloooo painnn :) But hey, life's awesome so who am i to complain :)
And naa just turned 18 yesterday, it was funn! I just finished watching gossip girl, season 2 part 1 :O ahahha. yes i'm so so slow. and now, to kill time as to not studying as guilty as i feel i'm just really not in the mood so... to get me all happy to replace the thoughts of school starting.. hello jason mraz :):)
I'm currently you-tubing jason mraz's crazy man's juju. (Thanks to Carmen) Just looking at him makes me smile and gets me happy. so yes, hello again tht big smile on my face. Haven't heard Jason Mraz in a long time, i'm ashamed to admit that. *blushes* But hey, he got me blogging so hello, omgihaveaurl :) ah i love himmm. you should too, if not.. goodbye :)
I'm gonna give back my full attention to my pretty videos now and in 2 days it'll be... Hello school :) oh wheee. hello sarcasm.

I is back to blogs :)

It'd been so long hasn't it since i've blogged or even been on the computer. sigh. too much has been going on but the holidays are just startingg babyy :D Mid-years was just stresfull but thank god i had Jason Mraz to keep me sane the past two weeks. now the real stress is coming.. Heloo Cheer :) i love it nontheless. Especially with out awesome new captain, AAINAAA :) you totally deserve it baby! So many things have happened and i'm in my happy place now, i guess you could say that. And whenever i'm not, i have Jason mraz singing wonderwall for me. Yes, my world revolves around him. Bite me, but i'm in love with him:)

and on your list of things to do,

is make me fall in love with you:)

just random.

CHARMS CHEERLEADING CHAMPIONSHIP :)

Everyoneeee! Go go! on sunday at 2 p.m, STUNNERS are performing :) Go there and support themmmm :)

I'm yourssssssss *goosebumps*

Ahhhhhh yesss, 4th of March, the night my world changed. I was there front row, screaming my lungs out not to mention i've already lost my voice from pre-sports events and cheerleading and as the night ended my voice was gone :) i also cried when he came on and i was all like "i love this song i love this song" and iman and elisa was like "Omg Nabbers, don't cry don't cry" hahaha.
He didin't sing bella luna, i wanted to hear him say "moon". cause he says it so sexily in the song. but he sang WONDERWALL! i love wonderwall. sigh. It was just amazing and and ohhhhh. post jason mraz goosebumps. hahaha. i love him and i just can't believe it's overr :'( By the time he ever comes back to Malaysia if he ever decides to i'lll probably be married and we won't get to date or anything like that! oh whyyyyy. :'( unless he comes back next year!!!! I'm pretty sure i wouldn't be married by then, but what if he gets married. oh no! :(
sigh, anyways. I haven't showered yet and i'm planning to do that sometime today so byeeee :)