thoughts, wind and I.

Today is my first day here where we dont have a planned agenda since the past three days its been orientation and i guess i could get used to the freedom. there's a "clubhouse" in our housing area where there's  a seating area and a pool though im not gonna swim here but its kinda nice seating here with the wind blowing having alone time on my lappie. i think im turning into a loner. Alone time is just so peaceful :) sometimes. though i wouldnt mind having my friends come visit me. *hint hint* I woke up late today,well 12 in the afternoon :S but i might as well enjoy it before i have to start studying. Then my roommates and i went for a 10 minute walk in the hot hot heat to get lunch cause that's the nearest shoplot area. i was craving pisang goreng after lunch with milo ais :) food here is just okay, but i guess its better than maggi all day. i bought cempedak goreng instead though cause it was getting really hot and i'll eat pisang goreng tomorrow:D And i bought my first bottle of cold mineral water. ahhhh, yes that was good. Then more laundry when i got back and another cold shower after sweating and put on a fresh batch of clothing and im at the clubhouse listening to jason mraz:) im kinda worried that im not doing my laundry properly. i dont know, i get so paranoid that it's not fully cleaned and i screwed it up, it gets so hard after its dried, someone tell me whyyy:(:( is it supposed to be that wayy? :( However i have simple little things that help me by and i know god's with me helping me day by day (though i lose sight of that sometimes) i wonder what i'll eat for dinner, im feeling kuey teow :) i wish my gossip girl would load already but its nottt :( its a good episode, the suspense is killing me! at least i have my book to read in the meantime :)
tataaaaa my pretty friendsss.

3 days in Kepala Batas and counting :(

The homesick is starting to really kick in, the first night was the worst though. trying to fall asleep at night on an unfamiliar bed with unfamiliar smells and thoughts, just crying myself to sleep wasnt enough. i had to clean up the whole room cause it was so dusty and i mean SO DUSTY. it was gross. The second day as i made more friends i guess it got better but then i just miss everything. It's definitely not the same, im still in malaysia and its already so different, im getting used to the whole housewife routine though but still, i wish i could fit in properly. even in a whole school full of malays, i still feel like an outsider looking in half the time. dont get me wrong, the people are really nice but i guess i just really miss my girls and everything back in kl. especially hugging jason and nemo :'( i wanna play stupid childish games with my brother again, and wim in my pool, sleep in my ned which i know is clean, with aircond and wake up to hot water. i cant do this asrama thing. i just want something  familiar. fingers crossed that thing get better and i can handle things better too. sigh. at least i still have some form of internet.

xoxo,gossip girllllll

loving it loving it loving ittttttt babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :) im hooked, again. i dont even know why im suddenly in such a gossip girl mood. must be all the "sexy time" their having ;) hahahaha. kidding, its lateeeeeee, forgive my beahviour.

You're my every dream come true.

"i cant play the rest of the song on the piano :( "

 "it's okay, i'll play the rest of it :)"

Angel of mine.

I look at you looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know 

a gush of loveeee.

ever had one of those nights where you cant sleep and all you do is think and you're hit by waves of emotions (i swear that part sounded like a song lyric. haha!) but seriously, you're feeling every emotion possible and all you wanna do is cuddle up wit someone you love where you feel safe in his arms. and just tell the people you love how much you love them that when everything seems so tough but the only words that make sense are, i love you. hello, one of those nights, im nabihah.

yes, i'm as shocked as you!

yes if you're going about it in your head over and over, this is a new post:) hence, the title. i just really miss blogging and im going to be way more free once i move to the kampung. well at least i'd imagine to be more free but i guess we'll have to find out then. thats funny bout life, the irony of it. i always thought i'd be the last to leave but this is way sooner than i thought. but you know, i'll take it. Taking chances and being prepare for every surprise that comes along the way, its not often in life you get second chances and do-overs, i guess i got lucky. but everything comes with a price and i know that. im looking forward to it though, i get to live a student's life, simple. i'll be wearing a baju kurung everyday, blending in with everyone around me, nobody knows about me, this is a completely fresh start. but life works its wonders. i got everything i ever silently wished for, god gave me what i wanted in the best way it should be in. i get to go to Ireland, have my whole ps i love you and a walk to remember thingi going on and i get to learn psychology too over there. hopefully i still get to stay optimistic when the goodbyes start and my tears never end. till then, tataaaa :)